A Secret Love Story of A Girl Who Fall in Love in School Life.

A Secret Love Story.

A Secret Love Story of A Girl.

It was never a happy ending love story. In fact, it was never what I have expected it to be. Our story started in “once upon a time”.. And like in fairy tales, I hoped for a happy one. But..our story never had a “happily ever after”. Not like Cinderella who got married with his prince charming after she fit a glass shoe.. Not like Aurora who woke up from deep sleep after being kissed with her Prince.. Not like Snow white who overcame death after she was kissed by her true love.. Not like Fiona who was rescued by his brave Shrek. It was never a fairy tale.. It never was..

Her first meeting. 

We met by chance. It was never planned. I believed that it was fate who brought us together. I was a High School student when I decided to transfer to a public school.. the school I once hated.

Everything was new to me. No friends.. no acquaintances. I thought I would be isolated for the rest of the school year. But eventually, I was able to make friends.

Like some high school girls, I was also hoping for a high school love. When I was younger, I could hear teenagers from our village talking about how "nakakakilig" it was to have a boyfriend in high school. I could see their happy faces.. I could hear them giggle every time they mention their boyfriends' names. I could feel how in love they were. So.. I started hoping, too. I started believing in love.

I had boyfriends before I transferred.And I admit, I was not really good in relationships. I often got dumped.. left out.. and hurt. I was not really sure why. Maybe..for them.. I was not good enough. I don't have a pretty face.. My body is not that fit, too. All I could be proud of is my brain. :-D ..

I was walking alone on the hallway.. spacing out. Thinking random things.. Then suddenly, I heard someone whistled. I wasn't sure if the one who whistled was aiming for my attention but, I still looked for him. And there.. I saw the most handsome guy I have ever seen in my life :-D.. OA?? Naah.. He really is good looking. With those firm black eyes.. pointed nose.. soft cheeks.. kissable lips.. (in short, makalaglag panty na kaguwapuhan)..

Her feeling about Love.

The guy was looking at me. :-D.. I was shy. I didn't know how to react so I just nodded at him. Then, he asked for my number. For someone who wanted to have a love life badly.. I didn't think twice :-D. I gave him my cellphone numberand walked away with a smile on my face ..

We started texting each other. We exchanged stories..shared thoughts. I never thought that someone as handsome as him would pay attention to someone as plain-looking as me :-D <3 <3 . I never expected that he was fun to talk with. He was a good listener and a great story teller. Everyday..he would spend time texting me.. And I was really happy :-D.

We often see each other at school. We were classmates, by the way. He would always smile at me and I would smile back. Though we didn't talk with each other personally, we could understand each other perfectly.

Start loving each other.

As days went by.. I fell in love with him. <3 <3 . And I believed he felt the same way, too. HE said I was special and that he was happy when he met me. And so we started dating. He became my special one. I couldn't imagine the joy I felt that day. If only I could share this moment with my friends :-D.

Falling in deep love.

We decided not to tell anyone about our relationship. At school, we never talked. We won't even throw glances with each other. We were afraid that people would judge our relationship. For us, it was best for them not to know. Every night he would come to my house. He would spend three hours with me. We talked.. we laughed.. we held hands.. Even if we never talked at school, he would always do small sweet stuffs.. like leaving chocolates and flowers on my desk.. send someone to bring me snacks during break time.. writing small notes for me :-D :-D. I was contented. I was happy. I never thought that I could love someone so dearly.

Time passed so fast and we celebrated our first anniversary. We faced struggles.. we had our own mistakes. We fought.. we had misunderstandings. But at the end.. we stayed together.

In the second year of our relationship.. we faced a huge challenge. He was really kind and good looking so it was not a shock for me if many girls were aiming for him. I was aware of the girls who had a crush on him...

Emotional and many obstacles.

The sad thing about our relationship was that I couldn't fight for him in front of the people around us. I couldn't hold his hands when someone was trying to get him. I couldn't tell those girls to back off because he's mine. I heard gossips about him having girlfriends.. Some would actually do silly things just to get him. He didn't deny.. he didn't say a word. He was so nice that he couldn't bare to hurt them. :-( :-( But... what he didn't know was that I was hurt.. it really hurts like hell.

I still stayed by his side. We still see each other every night. We talked like nothing happened.. we laughed.. we held hands. For me, being with him was enough. I decided to ignore all the gossips I heard.. I would trust him and give him all my heart.

Did you ever love someone wholeheartedly? Like.. that person became your life.? <3 <3 He became your strength and at the same time.. your weakness?? Have you ever sacrificed for the one you love? Have you ever set aside your pains for you to be able to stay by his side? If you do.. then you would understand me. :-D :-D

me :-D

I believed in what we had. .I believed in happily ever after. I hoped for our relationship to last. I hoped to be his one and only love.

I didn't want our relationship to end. We were still young that time but I was sure I loved him. he was the one I wanted to be with.. But..

Heights of emotions. 

My life was shattered.. My heart was broken into debris. My pain was a kind of pain that your tears won't even drop and you feel nothing. It's like the world has just ended. You don't cry.. you can't hear.. you don't want to see. And for a second.. your heart dies. I lost the concept of living.. I stopped attending classes. I drowned myself in depression.. I got drunk.. I isolated myself.. I was really miserable. And it was all because I loved him.

After how many days of living in darkness. .. it was still his face who could give light in my world. He was still the one who could give me the strength to fight..to stand up.. to fix the life that he broke. I would try to accept the fact that we were not meant for each other and we were not destined to be with each other. He was holding the hands of the one he truly loves.. and those hands were not mine. Come to think of it??!! I never really heard him say he loves me. I never asked. I was afraid to ask. I was scared...

What I could not accept was.. he tied knots with her while we were still in a relationship. I was left hanging.. I was left alone. I hoped.. I believed.. I expected. That someday.. the two of us will be together forever. The pain was so much for me to deal with.. but.. no one knows the pangs that I was going through. They judged me .. they laughed at me. They didn't know that it was because of him.. It was all because I loved him.

Days passed and we graduated. I was able to overcame the heartache.. I was able to hide my pains. I tried my best to stand up.. to pick all the pieces of my heart and pasted them together. I was still broken.. but, I was fighting. Yes.. he was my life.. he was my everything. But.. I prayed. .and I still got HIM (the Almighty) . Before graduation.. I wrote him a letter..

After lover got married to another Girl.

My dearest star,

How are you and your wife? I hope that you are having a happy married life.

..I am okay. I am going to be okay so don't worry about me. I am a fighter, you know that. I've been into so many heartaches but I am still standing up. Another one wouldn't kill me :-D ..

I just want to let you know that I loved you.. I really do. Forgetting you..and all the memories we had is hard. I want to be angry with you.. I want you to feel all the pains that I've been through.. But I think it's useless now. because I could see that you are happy. You are my life.. you are my light. That's why after losing you, I lost everything, too. But... I'm tired. I'm fed up. So.. I will try to move on. No!! I will move on.

Thank you so much for letting me love you.. for letting me experience the joy of being inlove. I was really happy during our relationship. I would not regret a single thing of what we had before. I was happy to meet you.. to be friends with you.. to talk with you.. to laugh with you..and to be in love with you. I have already accepted the fact that it wasn't meant to be. I wish we were in Fairy tales.. So that we could both live happily ever after. Reality hurts..but this is where we belong.

You will always be a part of me. But I won't be holding on to you. I am now ready to let go of your hand that once held mine. I wish you to be happy.. to have a wonderful life with your wife. I will be okay. Don't worry.. I still believe in love. And someday, I know, I would meet my true love.

Letting you go,

He was not able to read the letter because along with my feelings..I burned it. If you love someone.. expect that pain will always be there. Until you find the one for you.. you will experience pain and heartaches. Be strong.. fight. And even if you are hurt over and over again.. please don't stop believing in Love.
Continuing..............!